Wednesday, May 27, 2009

6 Months Since Bregan Grew His Wings....

Today marked 6 months since we held our Little Bregan for the last time. We miss him so much! I think it's so much harder on Aidan at times. She talks about Bregan everyday and she never got to meet him or hold him. But, she knows how important to everyone that he is and she feels a loss after many months of building her up for a little brother! Aidan is so sweet and is growing into quite the little lady. She is very SPIRITED and def a mini-me of both of us.
My MIL left after a visit this weekend. She was in for Dakota's high school graduation. Awwww, my first Baby graduated from Northeast High School with HONORS!! We didn't know it until we looked at the program! I don't think he did neither! He is such a Clever Boy! I will post pictures when I get them uploaded from my camera - I forgot the memory card, so they are on the cameras memory. Dakota will leave us for basic training in July at Fort Benning, GA. He will later go to Fort Bragg for his PSYOP AIT. I know a lot of confusing acronyms, I must get away from them - LOL! Anyway - we are going to miss our Big Boyo! Matthew will not have anyone to play video games and work on cars with. Aidan will miss her Dakota (Ko-Ko) and I will miss by first baby. I am so proud of him.
We lost my Momma on April 15th. She died after being in an unresponsive state for 9 days after falling and suffering a brain bleed. It was very sad to watch her slowly waste away. She had a DNR that prevented any life saving measures outside of pain management. However, I must say that Botetourt Funeral Home in Virginia, did an outstanding job on restoring her beauty! She looked REGAL!
Matthew is home from his last school in becoming an Army Officer. He has finally made the transition from being a Non Commissioned Officer. He starts degree completion at Austin Peay Sate University. He will be majoring in Accounting. I am so very proud him and I am looking forward to having him home for a bit.
We think of and miss Bregan every single day! Not a day goes by that I don't think about nursing him or cuddling him. Today I would have started introducing solid - maybe. I am very lazy when it comes to that - I am happy and contend to breastfeed - minimal work = maximum happiness!
We went to the Children's Garden Memorial at Vanderbilt Children's on the 17th of May. It was a very nice Memorial for all children that grew their wings while at Vanderbilt. There was a harpist there for the music, everyone (how wanted their child to participate) had the names read off, and then planted a flower in the Children's Garden in front of the hospital. It was very special. We really didn't want to go - but it was very healing and I am so glad we went.... I got to see Bregan's nurse there, Mylinda, she is sooooo sweet. She lost a baby 14 years ago and she knows our pain better than most. But everyone that works at Vandy are very special people!
I guess that is about all for now. I am not that great with keeping up with my blog. I am trying to spend more time away from the computer, but I know a few people do read it. I promise to upload some pictures (this century) soon. Thank you for reading and your continued prayers and thoughts.


  1. Thanks, Dianne, for the update on your family. I still do think of you so often and pray for you guys, even though I've not gotten to see you lately (in person). Hoping you have a nice, blessed summer ahead.

  2. Dianne,

    You don't know me, but I saw a link to your blog from the PR. I just wanted to say that I am deeply sorry for your loss. I had a little boy about 2 weeks before Bregan was born, and I don't know what I would do without him. You are a very strong woman to survive such an unimaginable loss. You, Bregan, and your family are in my prayers.

  3. Dianne,
    I'm from the Dec 08 PG on ivillage (nolamom). For some reason I clicked on the link to your blog as I was lurking today. You have incredible strength. Bregan was beautiful and my heart breaks for you and your family. I just wanted to let you know how much your story and your loss moved me. I will continue to think of you all.