Nearly Two Years

It has been nearly two years since we held our sweet little boy! I will never forget what he looked like and how wonderful and cuddly he was. I often wonder how he would be today - running around at top speed or laid back and calm in the midst of his older sister.
I think the thing that gets me the most is saying that it's been "2 years"! Two YEARS! WOW! Where did this time go? Our hearts have healed with time - but it's still not fair! We should be planning for a fun birthday, getting ready to go to a big boy bed, learning the ABC song, etc... Two years also becomes plural - like really long ago Bregan was here... It's just odd.
So, we are planning to visit Vanderbilt for his birthday and present a check to the NICU Social Workers Fund. If anyone wants to donate in Bregan's Memory, please see the info in my very first post or the post for Bregan's first birthday. This year though we are giving part of his birthday money to a fund for a friend whose daughter has Neuroblastoma. Hopefully she will be fine and they have caught it quickly enough.
Thank you for reading and I promise to update more on Bregan's birthday!

Feeling Nostalgic

As Autumn begins, I really start feeling nostalgic about so much.... I remember going to the Pumpkin Patch when I was getting really big when I was pregnant with Bregan. I still have the same orange Happy Bunny Halloween top that I wore when I was pregnant Bregan and even Thalia. I remember shopping for little boy baby goodies 2 years ago... I remember trying to get as much second hand stuff as I possible could - I was being green. I remember seeing Matthew off as he left for one of his military schools for 7 weeks. I remember being pregnant with Bregan like it was yesterday.... I miss every single thing about my baby boy!
October Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Month - with the 15th as the official day. It stinks having to have Remembrance Day - no parent should ever have to say goodbye to their baby! I just love my Bregan and my heart still aches for him everyday in so many ways.... Time has healed our broken hearts, but it will never take away the pain of missing our baby boy!
Please visit http://www.october15th.com/ for more information about Pregnancy and Infant Loss.

19 Months

I can't believe our Sweet Little Bregan would be 19 months old today! Where has that time gone! Thalia will be 5 months old tomorrow, which is also hard to believe. I just wanted to post that we miss you Bregan and we love you sooooo very much! Your brother and sisters, Mommy and Daddy miss you terribly! We know that you are a sweet guardian angel and that you are helping other little angels along as they sadly arrive there with you. But I know that you do live on in the life of another child with your heart valves. We love you and miss you Bregan! Big Hugs and Kisses!!

Our Rainbow Baby

Our Rainbow Baby Girl - Thalia Evan, arrived after less than 6 hours of labor on 24 JAN 2010 at Vanderbilt University Hospital. It was a very healing and relaxing birth. It was also our 7th wedding anniversary! We took about 5 hours to finally name Thalia Evan - but we think the names suits her well.
I was so glad that we chose the OB and hospital we did for this birth! We felt Bregan's presence there in so many ways and that was very calming. I opted for an epi this time since I was going the pitocin route and really, it wasn't that bad at all. After the dramatic and painful birth of Bregan, we welcomed the relaxing and peaceful birth of Thalia.
Thalia Evan - Our Rainbow Baby Girl, 1/24/10, 2:57 CST, 8lbs 80z, 201/2 in long. Full head of reddish-blonde hair with natural highlights! Picture taken after her bath when she was about 4 hours old. She looks nothing like Dakota, Aidan or Bregan ! But she is soooo beautiful!

14 Months On....

I can't believe it's been 14 months since Bregan came into our lives! He brought such great hope, happiness, love, compassion, and so much more! I really do wonder what he would be like today - walking, crawling, eating, being guided and directed by his big sister??? We miss you so much Bregan!!
Today something else special will be taking place at Vanderbilt. This morning we are going in for our induction to meet the newest Webb member! My OB understands my desire to have him deliver our Rainbow daughter and deliver her in the hospital that is neighbors with Monroe Carrell's Children's Hospital at Vanderbilt. We really didn't want to risk just going into labor and driving down to Nashville given that I tend to have quick'ish labors. Maybe next time, we will be more relaxed and willing to go with the flow, but this time I need someone that I trust.
We are excited, nervous, worried, scared, happy, and filled with an immense hope. We don't have a name yet - we are waiting to meet this little girl, but we have several in mind for her. We leave in a couple of hours to go to Vanderbilt L&D. Aidan is going to a friends house for the day and hopefully Daddy can pick her up tonight and bring her home. I am gonna miss my big girl that just turned 4 on the 21st~! Please see cutie pic of her blowing Daddy kisses.
I ask for your positive thoughts, vibes and prayers for a healthy and save delivery of this little girl! I ask that she come home with us and take her place as my 4th sweet baby and that she will nurse at the breast and love us just as much as we love her! I ask that our Sweet Guardian Angel Bregan know that he is not forgotten and that I miss him soooo much! I ask that you watch over your big brother Dakota while he is in Airborne school and your big sister Aidan while she adjust to your new little sister. But I ask of you to please look out after your baby sister and protect her even though I couldn't protect you. I love you Bregan and we miss you so much.....